.save the world.
You remember when you were young, you have all these great dreams about being the one who is going to change the world? That maybe one day, you'll wake up and realise that you have all these cool supernatural powers that only you would possess? And so you dream about making your mark in society, fighting the bad guys and doing good, being the heroine in your own story.
I know I did.
I remember watching documentaries of battered women in Pakistan or starving children in places like Niger, thinking that one day, I am going to be the one out there giving help to these less fortunate people. I will put on my cool red cape and lucky red underwear and go on this great mission to save the world.
I'm ashamed to say that somewhere along the course of growing up, I had forgotten about this dream. I had chucked it to the back of my mind, letting cynicism and the other materialistic things in life take precedence. It was only when I was talking to sheen today about how wei was telling me yesterday that she was very excited about being involved in this social work program for children with disabilities that I realised what I had forgotten.
Or maybe I had not forgotten about it but I had simply chosen to push it to the "I will do this next time when I am free" list because I have other things like watching One Tree Hill or guitar lessons on my mind. Truth is, I never really seemed to be free enough to bother.
I think in school where they put a measurement in hours as to how much you are helping the less fortunate, doing social work has somehow lost its real meaning. You are forced to do flag day, during which you walk around Orchard Road annoying pedastrians with your donation cans. You look for (maybe unconsciously) community involvement programs to clock in extra social service hours so you can get a better award in school.
Honestly, I never really gained much satisfaction from doing flag day. And somehow along the way of trying to get as many CIP hours as possible, I had left my red cape and underwear behind.
So tomorrow, I have decided that I am going to register for a social work program (woowoo, you're coming with me!).
Wei reminded me that the red cape and saving the world dream, was really just about (I quote) "giving back to society".
.the cynic.
"I will love you forever and ever"
"I am the future Mr./Mrs. ______"
"Forever and ever"
I used to snigger secretly to myself when my friends tell me how much they love their boyfriends or girlfriends, how I used to think that the "forever and ever" bit was just a whole bunch of crap. And how I used to think I was too mature for all that crap. But that itself was just a bunch of crap.
So I won't anymore. Well maybe not consciously at least. Who can control their first instincts? haHA! Anyways, that's not the point. The point is that I realised today while watching one tree hill (Yes I know, I learn all my life morals and all the epiphanies- however stupid they are- I gain are from watching TV) that "forever and ever" was just what they were feeling at that moment. And who's to judge them for that?
Anyways, no more laughing or sniggling or rolling of eyes.
I hope greatness falls on everybody.
World peace. (bimbo Miss Universe wave)
Gavin DeGraw Lyrics
I Don't Wanna Be Lyrics
it used to be me against the world.
Now it's grow up pal, grow up.
.Everybody's a little bit fucked up.
I was listening to my ipod today and there was this monologue at the end of the song "Bent". Thought it pretty much encapsulated what everyone (or at least most of us) is feeling from time to time.
So people, the wise words of matchbox twenty...
"...In thirty one years, I've found out that everybody in the world... EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD is a little bit fucked up okay... and it's okay it's okay.. when you're young, when you're young you think it's just you, you're at home, you're trying to hide it, you figure maybe you'll grow out of it, maybe sooner or later you'll get all the other people BUT what you don't know when you're young is that it's everybody man, EVERYBODY'S A LITTLE BIT FUCKED UP. And so as you get older, as you get older, you get two kinds of people. You have the fortunate people who realise it early on man and they let their free flag fly and they have a good time and they don't think too hard about it; they don't take themselves too seriously. And then there's those poor bastards on the other side and they're still trying to play it cool man, every day... I'm not fucked up."
It's okay to be a little bit fucked up every now and then.
If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad
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