are we thewaiting

Friday, October 26, 2007

我可以改變世界
改變自己改變龜毛改變小氣
要一直努力努力永不放棄
才可以改變世界
C'mon 改變自己

I need to believe in that

jerrie kicks;; 1:11 PM

Monday, October 08, 2007

.my fish.

I have this fish. This dying luo han fish that has been seen -recently- doing a couple of somersaults and upside down turns in the half-metre long fish tank of mine.

Anyone who has ever been to my house before would definitely be appauled by the atrocious state of my fish tank (and I mean really opague dirty-green water to which you have to squint your eyes in order to identify the red nuchal hump on the forehead of my fish).

Back in my old house, my family and I used to rear lots of different breeds of fishes- from goldfishes to the really expensive angel fishes- in this really huge fish tank of ours that we display at the balcony. Even from the beginning, we knew that we wanted our fishes to be disciplined and well-mannered creatures. Just like how my parents always forced my brother and I to eat vegetables, the first step that we took to training my fishes was to ensure that they were not picky with their food; hence, we stuck to giving all our fishes the same type of fish food- the one meant specific to goldfishes only. When my brother was old enough to know how to be the pest that all younger brothers never fail to be, he would occasionally make sudden punches at the fish tank, causing the fishes to swim hastily towards the back of the tank in fright, sometimes crashing into the oxygen pump with a resounding bang. Maybe it was because of the military-like "training" that our fishes undergo, they never live long enough. Every now and then, we would come home to find a fish -or two- lying very still on the balcony floor. Dead.

To be really honest, I kinda resent my luo han. Grumps -that's its name- was this very fiesty and aggressive creature. That shits an awful lot (I'm not kidding). When it was still very much alive and kicking (or swimming), it would make sudden annoying splashes, spraying water on the sofa and anyone who happened to be near the tank. Not too often, Grumps would make abrupt gargantuan splashes as though it was about to jump out of the tank and commit suicide. During those moments, I remembered wishing silently that it would just pluck up its courage to make that jump.

Be a man Grumps.

jerrie kicks;; 11:27 PM