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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

.a little tired.

Most of my holidays are spent insipidly and perhaps, inanely. This holiday-like most others-, I have chosen to spend most of it sitting in front of my precious box of useless fantasies. This religious ritual that I have subtly adopted over the years has surprisingly given me a hell lot of insights in life.
For one, I have realised I can sleep for only 3 hours and be perfectly energetic-to continue my solemn practise(of watching VCDs HAHHA).
Secondly, I have realised that eating boiled sausages with chocolate and strawberry ice cream at 2 a.m is unexpectedly enticing.
Thirdly, I have started noticing small details that I normally overlooked. My proudest discovery I must say is the mole on Kenix Kwok's neck. The most recent one is the odd shape of Jessica Hsuan's left-specifically the bottom-ear.

Been wishing for a whole lot more recently.
I think this feeling's called greed.

And then I see so much more.

But what can I do?

I seem to stop there.

jerrie kicks;; 11:35 AM

Friday, November 24, 2006

.sappy.

A woman's peripheral vision might be said to be wider than a man's, but I have come to realise that it is often blurred and only centred on what is directly in front of her.

Anyways, I cannot believe I just did it again.
I completed a 40-episodes drama serial within 2 and a half days!!!!
HAHAHHAHA.
I think this is it.
My form of escapism.

This is life.

jerrie kicks;; 11:38 PM

Sunday, November 12, 2006

.on a not so quiet night.

I think what's lacking in my life right now is a little direction.

A little indication of where to go and what to do to get there.

In retrospect, I might have understood myself better when I was still young and naive. At the very least, I was certain of what I liked and what I didn't like. I liked fruity-flavoured ice creams and not the chocolate-flavoured ones; now, I take ages deciding which flavour to buy! I liked going to my maternal relatives' houses and not my paternal ones'; now I cannot decide which is worst. I hated friend A while I liked friend B (remember how we used to categorize our friends into best best friends, best friends, good friends, not so good friends... in our autograph books! HAHAHHA); now it seems, every relationship is love and hate both at the same time.

As we grow older, every thing becomes more intricate and sophisticated. This I have come to realise, can be taken both ways. More sensitivity and understanding towards matters will leave you at a loss at what to do. "With more power comes a greater responsibility"-spiderman. "Tension of the opposites"-Tuesdays with Morrie.

There are so many things I cannot decide.

I need an overt sign.

A compass.

As well as a little affirmation and assurance. Yes, this will be very much welcomed.

jerrie kicks;; 10:17 PM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

.change.

I think that there's a need to RECONSTRUCT my life.

Because life's been such a bitch lately.

The overwhelming number of revolting events that have led to the corruption of peoples' lives.

And my perspective of things.

Metamorphosis is a MUST.

I've got to keep up with this rising trend of bitchy-ness and the first step to doing so is to think bitchy and act bitchy as well. No reason why I should let myself be left out from what is the "in" thing now. Pui.

it's fucked. school. outside school.

I need a change.

jerrie kicks;; 9:49 PM