are we thewaiting

Sunday, July 24, 2005

.hell.

It's amazing how people never seem to see their own faults. we always notice other peoples' flaws ever-so-clearly, never seeing that we make such mistakes ourselves. what pisses me off is how people like to accuse me of doing something that they commit themselves. still, when i point out how unfairly accused i am... they get pissed off! it's a wonder how i have managed to take all these shit lying down.

Alright, it has been ancient since i last updated. school has been alright, chan yoke mun's a ruddy ass. just fuck off man. life outside school has been fine as well. have not been having so much of a social life, am in a serious finance situation that people hardly seem to understand. oh sigh.

profanities. profanities.

jerrie kicks;; 2:18 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

.ah yah.

i just wish that there was more give and take.

jerrie kicks;; 9:46 PM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

.what can i say.

Often, i find myself thinking of the most stupid and inanely foolish things in the world. just yesterday, i was suddenly hit by this strong fear that i might have breast cancer! being the overly-paranoid person that i am, i spent my whole night worrying... pestering my friends about the symptoms of breast cancer. when i told one of my friends that i occassionally feel acute pains in my left boob, she told me, "It's ok, that's the whole point of having two breasts... so that when one is cut off, you still have the other." so that is wei ling for you. some friend! i almost died of laughter upon seeing her message. ha ha ha!

These few days have been rather strange. even while conversing with my friends, i tend to "detatch" myself from the convesation; i am inclined to listen and analyse the conversation from an outsider's perspective, not getting too involved in the exchange. this allowed me to have a clearer viewpoint of what my friends are like. not that they are two-faced, hypocritical criminals or whatsoever, it gave me an opportunity to better understand my friends' personalities. this in a way, assured me of the company i hang around with. i mean, everyone has their flaws, to learn how to accept and make compromises are big social skills that one has to learn in order to maintain a friendship... or in actual fact, any relationship.

Anyways, it had been a while since i last blogged. everything has started off on a neutral note this term. however, one of the things i just can not stand is the oppressive weather. the heat and humility is almost unbearable; i feel my emotions fluctuate rapidly according to the weather. there was a line in a magazine i read that went something like, "the susceptibility of human kind to mother nature is tremendous...". this is so so true.
I have been trying hard to suppress my feelings these few days. one moment i can be joking around vivaciously, the next... i may be hit by an irrational hurt. sometimes, i even get irritated and frustrated at my friends over the slightest things.
Ah yah. Oh well, i guess i shall just have to learn to take everything lightheartedly and with a pinch of salt.

stupid entry. stupid weather. feeling stupid.

jerrie kicks;; 7:13 PM