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Saturday, December 25, 2004

.christmas.

so it's christmas today. nothing beats spending it at home with my annoying brother and irritable parents. my mother got into this freaking cleaning frenzy. made a mess of my room. started yelling at everyone. and guess what, all i got for christmas this year was a bag of chips i accidentally left lying on the sofa thrown onto my face. damn her. damn the whole blinking world.

where's the christmas spirit? im feeling lousy.

sigh. anyways, after all the grumbling about how this christmas sucks, im starting to feel hungry. shall go grab some chocolates after im done with this update. unlike my alarm clock, my chocolates never fail me. i always feel so cheered up after eating them.

i know it has been ancient since i last updated. so terribly sorry, was feeling very lazy this whole hol. anyways, someone told me that Christmas is about forgiving and forgetting about things that dont matter. so instead of wallowing in self pity, i have decided to read through the christmas cards given to me. long cards. short cards. they never fail to put a smile on my face. thanks to everone who gave me these beautiful christmas cards. they reminded me of what Christmas is really all about. it's about sharing and showing appreciation to our love ones. thank you.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :)

May all of you have a great year ahead.

jerrie kicks;; 8:41 PM

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

.blarr.

it's one of those days when you crawl out of bed feeling like you're the most obese creature on earth. crap. i have been trying to go on a proper diet since i was Primary 5. but the thing is, my diet plans have never lasted for long. my record is: three pathetic days! daggit.

and now. even while im commenting on my failed diet plan and sulking at how fat i am ... im chomping at a cookie at one hand, and gobbling down a cup of chocolate chip ice-cream at the other. heavens! i think that the only way i will ever slim down is liposuction. OUCH!

Anyways, there was the volleyball bbq at Sentosa yesterday. the seniors made sure that we all had our baths before we were all ALLOWED into THEIR room to sit on the floor. we were not allowed to sit on the beds even though there were no chairs in the room. we were told not to mess up the room. even though there were tidbits, we were not allowed to eat them. and even while we were all hungry and weary from all the waiting for the food to get started, some of the seniors were annoyed that we were eating the cold fishballs and otah even though each of us only had a fishball each and opened only one otah to share among us. and it's not as though we didn't want or try to help with the bbq. it's ok that the food's cold. it's cool that we are only allowed to sit on the floor. it's alright that we were treated like 7 year old kids. im cool. everyboday's cool. after all, we ONLY paid a miserable fifteen dollars each.
i wonder what would happen if we all decided to stay over.

sigh. it's not so much the food. sometimes i feel that we don't belong. like we are not welcomed.

jerrie kicks;; 11:13 AM