.sigh.
im sorry for being all grumpy and grouchy these few days.
there is like this really big thing that seems to be weighing me down till it has been rather difficult to breathe at times. thing is, i cant put my hand on what that "big thing" is.
blinking freaking fucking asanvsdlanesitvnt;ouyroirtbydtiosea vs,.fjdrneoo8avezotvzun.tlrewamvbiwdkyvt,drtjilvdontadsv.kjbesuvi asebiovfuasivnaetbutiantvanlwetyiskjtbyeaytiaetetviv ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!
ok. im feeling better now that all of that is out of my chest. anyways, i was wondering.. when adults feel tired, stressed and bored from work, they can request for a work leave.. or they could just quit and go on a holiday for a year or two till they are all charged up and ready to get back to work. even people in the entertainment business, they could just go on a year's leave without caring how their fans would feel. how about us students? is there a chance that there would be a school holiday during which we do not have to do any holiday homework, any revision for next year, any trainings for competition. will there ever be a holiday where it is just pure resting, relaxation and enjoyment?
i found out that the answer is very simple actually: no.
sigh. i guess we all have our crosses to bear in life. sigh!
.sick.
im so ruddy sick and tired of all these shit. today was absolutely horrendous.
sometimes, i think that being friends with you is such a blinking chore. in the dumps.
.this is for you: jeAsSeA.
She's very talented. She's drop-deap gorgeous. She's very polite. And she's awfully friendly. sigh. so you see, you can't blame me for going crazy over her. i love that lady. ha ha! i saw her once and she was very nice and everything. it's been ages since i am going so crazy over an idol. after britney started to get all wild and everything. And i started to lose faith in her, i thought i was so over this "idol chasing thingamy". guess i was wrong. ha ha! Was watching the replay of Singapore Idol just now on channel five. and i caught Jeassea's last performance again. i'm still feeling very sore over Jeassea getting booted out but i guess that there is no use wishing that she was still in the competition. i wanna wish her all the best though. and if she is ever going to produce an album, be sure that i will buy it.
anyways, was listening to "say it with music" on the radio last night. and florence, the singapore idol judge, called in. she commented that jerry definitely deserved to be out of the competition, but he is actually a really nice guy. he went to thank all the judges personally after the show and he never stopped smiling despite of all the booing going on in the studio. he maintained his cool and remained a dignified man. alright, i know it is odd that being a jeassea supporter, i would post something like this about jerry. but i thought that despite his lousy singing, he took things in his stride and i respect him for that. he never did mind the tremendously harsh comments said to him by the judges and what's more, he thanked the judges. And for that, i think he deserves all the credit he can get.
anyways, Damnation. i have decided: i shall go out more often and hope that i get to bump into Jeassea again some day. ha ha!
.this is it.
ok. this is it. the big moment. the moment we have all been waiting for: THE RUDDY EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! cheers to the surviving souls out there. we made it through. yes everyone, we survived.
sigh. was feeling a little down earlier in the day. it wasn't like before. when everyone was so truely happy and thankful that the exams are over. all i felt was just this numbness and emptiness inside of me.
so anyways, my friends and i went to cineleisure and caught "wimbledon" together. it was just like any other typical love story which revolves around a game of tennis. the funny thing was, after watching this movie, i felt very overwhelmed. i felt so... so... so saved. do you get what i mean? ah yah. nevermind.
anyways, i have come up with this new mission in life. "im going to take everything as it comes, be it good or bad, with grace and dignity."
so for the remaining five days before the damn results are out, im going to enjoy myself while i still can. sheen's motto: carpe diem. seize the day.
i think that this phrase is so blinking true.
*confused soul*
Alright! i have only one paper left till the end of the exams and oh boy, i cant wait for all these blinking shit to be over. yes people, Yes! im still alive and kicking. thought i would die from sheer exhaution at one point, but i made it. am terribly proud of myself. Hahaha! Damn, i think the exams made me go bonkers.
Anyways, i realise that im in this critical situation here. i have suddenly realised that i am this anti-social freak, especially when it comes to people of the opposite sex. it's amazing how i always manage to get into some sort of conflict with almost every guy i know (which is not a lot btw) within a short span of three days! Wonder if i should start getting worried? HaHa! But truth is, i really cant be bothered. Cheers to the lonely souls in this world! :P
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